Get it, get it? July? You lie? “Why did you lie to me?” “Why did July to me???” Hahaha? Yes? No? It was the only clever July-related title that I could think of off the top of my head. Not that every post title has to be clever…or related…and granted, it has absolutely nothing to do with anything (other than the fact that July is upon us)…and it sounds like a line out of a soap opera… Okay. Nevermind. So I’m weird. And corny. Moving on..
So yes, July IS upon us, and I can barely believe it! The EP has been out and about for a little over a month now. Thanks to all you fine folk who bought it so far! I sincerely hope you enjoy it.
I am not a super-frequent, every-week kind of blogger (as you can tell). Nor do I twitter. (I have successfully avoided that bandwagon thus far.) However, I do enjoy reading blogs and occasionally I will check other people’s twitters. I love reading Brooke Fraser’s blog and Bethany Dillon’s blog…and even…once in a while…yes…Taylor Swift’s. (Confession: I am a Taylor Swift fan. There. I said it. Out loud. For the longest time I denied liking her music because I deemed her to be “too country/pop/teenybopper” for my tastes. Buuuuut…I can’t deny that she’s a really good songwriter and her music is fun and catchier than all get out. And yes, if her songs come on the radio, I do turn them up and sing along…call it a guilty pleasure.) Anyways. Check them out. They’re pretty amusing (to me, at least).
Okay, what was I saying?!?! Sorry this is such a scattered blog. Alright. So, anyways, sometimes I go through phases of really liking an artist and admiring their songwriting and whatnot, so much so that I start comparing theirs with my own, and then I get really bummed. Case in point: currently, Taylor Swift. I think it’s because a few days ago I caught her music video for “You Belong With Me“…and realized that the “unrequited love” theme is much like the theme in my own “It Was Me“. It’s “It Was Me” minus New York City, plus a cute, oh-so-relatable high school scenario. I really like “You Belong With Me”. It’s catchy, fun, catchy, tells a good story…and did I say catchy? So, for the past few days, I was feeling like “It Was Me” was not-so-great and, well, kind of boring and bland in comparison. Which got me thinking that perhaps I need to tweak my overall style a bit.
And then I realized that this is just another phase. You see, I have my moments of wanting to change everything and only write deep, significant, if-the-Anthropologie-store-were-a-music-style-it-would-be-this, Brooke Fraser-esque kind of songs. And then I have my moments of wanting to write the sweet, folksy-but-not-too-folksy, spiritually uplifting Bethany Dillon-ish songs. And now, the fun, catchy, blast-it-in-my-radio-while-driving-on-a-summer-day songs of Taylor Swift. Moments where I wish I was more artistic, more descriptive, more metaphorical, more straight-forward, cleverer, vaguer, clearer, quirkier, poppier, rockier, acoustic-ier…
Now, please realize that I do occasionally ok, pretty often, try to write songs in the different styles of artists that I like. I think it’s a good exercise. It helps diversify me as a writer. In fact, I think it helps me develop my own style (which, honestly, I’m still trying to figure out what that is) by fleshing out what I do and don’t like about certain genres while still tending to have hints of “me” peppered throughout it anyways. (Wow. Run-on sentence, anyone?) It’s also fun, and I enjoy a challenge like that.
The point is this: I can try to write in a different style for songwriting exercises and for my own amusement. But I cannot, nor should I, be a different style because it’s what catches my ear at that moment or because I sillily compare myself to other people. The whole reason why I like Brooke Fraser, Bethany Dillon, and Taylor Swift (and others) in the first place is because they are uniquely them. They each fill a musical niche for me. I am not Brooke Fraser. I am not Bethany Dillon. I am not Taylor Swift. I am not Regina Spektor (she’s another fave of mine, too.). I am not Chris Martin (I dig him, too). I am just….me. Kim Edwards. Me. Whatever that is, I am it. Lacking or full, I am she. Me.
So, I guess I really shouldn’t be bummed about “It Was Me”. Hone my songwriting skills? Definitely. Wish I was someone else? Nah. Whatever gifts/skills God wired into me, I am pretty sure He meant them to form me, not to form me into {insert artist name here}.
So that’s my epiphany for the week. “That’s it?!?” you say. “That’s what I read 800-some words for?!?” Yep. Pretty much. Kudos to you for reading all this. Go grab yourself a cookie. You earned it.
P.S. I think this post has the most links I’ve ever inserted into a post. In case you were anxiously wondering about that.
I thought so.